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Genderfluidity

 Over the years, my gender identity has shifted many times. I knew initially that I was genderfluid, but tried very hard to be a binary trans woman, along with various other non-binary identities until I came to the conclusion of being a genderfluid hypertwink and otherkin (a partially nonhuman entity). 

I consider myself a girl, a boy, technogender, and aliencatgender. The latter two can fall under Xenogenders or agender. The reason I call myself a girl and a boy is because I'm uncomfortable with woman or man due to developmental delays caused by trauma that have put me in a near permanent state of regression. I am also a hypertwink and try to take twink aesthetic to its fullest reaches in my presentation, and I am on hormone replacement therapy primarily to preserve my youth, my hair, and make me more twink-like and androgynous. The only gender affirming procedures I find necessary for myself is further laser hair removal.

I would also like to describe how my genderfluidity manifests, as it is not clear-cut. I often experience these genders fluctuating and mixing at the same time throughout everyday life. This used to make me feel bad when I was trying hard to be binary trans, but I have learned to accept it as who I really am, and there's no such thing as one person being "more trans" than another.

Simply put, my gender fluctuates throughout the day, and you could even consider my identity a multiflux type of genderflux, but that is under the genderfluid umbrella, and it's easier for me to identify with the larger umbrella of genderfluidity. It also leaves room to continue to add gender identities and expressions to my repertoire as I see fit. You can also call my presentation genderqueer, and I also fall under the non-binary and trans umbrellas, which are much larger and cover more ground. 

Furthermore, I would like to list my pronouns in order of preference: they/them/their; ze/zim/zir; s/he /hir/hirs; she/her/hers; and xe/xem/xyrs.

 Please do not refer to me as he/him/his at this time, despite my earlier statements. I am not cis and never will be. If I decide later that I am fine with it, I will inform the public, but please respect my boundaries for now. 

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